My most recent memories of Thanksgiving are not ones of joy. i approach the holidays hesitant to embrace them because they never feel good for me. i never fall asleep the night of Thanksgiving or Christmas feeling very joyful or whatever we’re supposed to feel. Maybe you have never experienced the weight that the holidays can bring and if so, i am so thankful for you. But, if you’re like me, i want you to know that you are not alone tonight.